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Each Tear

I would have left that day but waiting for you was a sign

It was a true testament to my faith in your return

Here it is many days and nights thereafter and I still weep inside

Wrapping myself up in your bed of lies, you said you’d never leave

Now I only see you in my dreams…

Your lips taste like dawn breaks

My heart pounds and my body aches

Then I awake to the tragedy of looking for someone that I know will never be there

I should have left that day…

Picture Perfect

You didn’t get the picture until you were out of it…

I was constantly sandwiched between asinine thoughts of ‘true love is like this’ and ‘it’s supposed to feel this way’

I invested in you and it cost me everything I was…

You’d leave and I’d still pray that wherever you were, the stars lit your night skies

While you preyed on my sincerity

Doing everything in my power to get you to come back safely regardless of the extent of the damage you caused when you left…

My loyalty to you, was deeply rooted

Hopeless to eradicate…

I wasn’t lost

I knew my worth

I didn’t fear you

I didn’t even need you

I just despised being alone until loneliness became familiar

You’d “change” when you thought you were losing me

Then retrocede when I’d return for more

Repeatedly rebounding…

I saturated the pillows with my feelings for you until I was empty

Ruined

She fractured her own feelings because he always favored leaving

Futile and frustrated she was tired of being mistreated

Dealing with all his demons

Apologies that held no meaning

Friends ask why don’t you leave him?

Concealing her doltish reasons

The beatings cheating and bleeding

Began feeding into his dreaming

Once appealing now has her reeling

Sealing the spot of weakling

Mistakes You Made

You have to go through hell to appreciate heaven

I nearly drowned saving you and you fell in love with your reflection

Once so familiar you’re now a stranger to me

Best friends with a love expired

We tasted bittersweet

That’s the thing about you beloved…

I thought this fairytale was my reality, you gave me the world in an instant and then I felt like I didn’t exist

All at once…

I couldn’t breathe

You weren’t consistent

It’s like you had no soul and your sole purpose was to devastate what we created

I just wanted us to fix it, you didn’t need my two cents

Your scent still sent chills…but you left me no choice

I’m sleeping with her dreaming of you, I guess it’s true

It’s hard letting another person love you

Arctic 

Your love was pain

You suffered a self loathe that was as thick as frozen wrinkles that lie still at sea

The deceit of your indestructible surface was see-through

Desperation was imprisoned behind your eyes

I yearned to flow freely within you, beneath you, to help free you…from you

But it was too late 

Late like a brisk May oversleeping her March into Spring

The rain falling was no match to the tears I shed

As asphyxiation from your affliction set in 

Your love was pain

And mine was no match to the hate you held within

Like a cloud that faded into the horizon I vanished…as so many others have before me in your ocean of rejection.