The leaves and branches crunched beneath her bare feet as she ran through the woods in a torn black dress. She tripped over a stump falling face first to the ground then instantly covered her mouth with both hands. Her ankle was twisted and she wanted to scream out in inconceivable pain, but knew if she did he’d hear her. She sat with her back against a tree and wiped the blood from above her brow and wept silently. It was completely dark and Kris couldn’t see anything except the breath that escaped her mouth and nose. There was no one around for miles and she had nowhere to go. She knew she couldn’t stay there but she wasn’t sure if Steven followed her into the woods or not. She had never seen her husband so upset before and needed to get as far away from him as possible. This weekend getaway was supposed to be about celebrating their anniversary but he found out she’d been having an affair. After nearly two hours Kris began to crawl back to the cabin hoping he would be gone so she could call for help. Halfway there she tried to stand and was hit from behind so hard that it knocked her unconscious. Steven woke up in his bed the next morning in hysterics and called the police. “Calm down sir” the operator said before asking “how long has your wife been missing?” “She wasn’t here, I got home from work around six last night and and she” Steven choked through his words “I thought maybe she went out with some friends.” The operator kept him on the line until police arrived at his home. After weeks of multiple conflicting interviews Steven was charged with murder and spent months in jail awaiting his trial. His day had finally come and before the verdict was read the judge asked him if there was anything he wanted to say. Steven stood and turned to Kris’ family with tears in his eyes and said “I loved Kris with all my heart and I’d never want to hurt her. I want to catch this person just as much as you do, and I need you all to believe it wasn’t me. I love you” he said to her mother who was grimacing and crying simultaneously. He sat down and his attorney patted him on the back. The judge began, “have you reached a verdict?” and the jury foreperson responded “We have, your Honor. We the jury, in the case of The State of Missouri versus Steven Edwards, find the defendant not guilty of the charge of second degree murder.” Steven fell to his knees in disbelief and Kris’ family erupted in agony. “Thank you, Jury, for your service today. Court is adjourned.” Steven stood and his attorney congratulated him just as Kris’ mother walked quickly towards him. She screamed through tears “I know you did it you son of a bitch! I know you killed my daughter.” A slow grin spread across his face and he mouthed the words ‘they’ll never find her body’ to her and walked out.
I wanted you to stitch the torn pieces of me back together
Sew the shredded fragments of ripped reliance so that I’d be whole again
I just knew that if you ran your fingers across my seams they’d be invisible because perfect was you
Even the sky admitted it…
The rain fell gently, the wind whispered your name
The sun resented your glow
You were art and I craved your brush’s stroke
But we traded heartbreak instead…
Your courage was ragged too
The dark clouds obscured a bruised psyche that quietly complimented my flawed existence
We were balanced destruction…
Equally ravaged and mentally vandalized
Our defective ways fulfilled an eternal bond
We never wanted kids. We were together since high school and he always thought he’d be a pro football player and have me as his trophy housewife. I was fine with that. We loved spoiling one another and spending our free time together. Kids would change our lives and we never wanted to be labeled as bad parents. He came from a big family and had countless nieces and nephews that we would see often. My mother always wanted me to make her a grandmother especially being the only child. I just never thought I’d feel like a mother and I didn’t want to one day regret bringing a life into the world. What if I couldn’t love them? We were packing for our trip to Bora Bora after a long season. I couldn’t wait to spend our anniversary in a new atmosphere together and completely alone. It was the night before our flight and we were sitting on the couch watching television and he randomly blurted out that he wanted to have a baby. I never took my eyes off the screen hoping I didn’t just hear what I think I heard. He shut the tv off and put both of my hands in his repeating himself. I began to cry and he did too but our tears were for different reasons.
I never remember my dreams
I don’t have to
I wake up next to the one that came true
It’s all starting to make sense
I get why people say ‘I wish I knew then what I know now’
Maybe I wouldn’t feel this way…
Sure it was destiny, but if I could rewrite history you would have been a mystery
Never to occur
Why didn’t my mind save my heart? You put me through rings of fire…
I was rooted, you grew wild
You built walls, I climbed them
The deepest of pain couldn’t penetrate the extent of my love, it was unconditional
But you loved conditionally and differently, without dignity
You simply said you don’t know what true love is
That you’re okay with being careless
You have a fetish with being selfish
You relish in this hell this trellis, only exist to be overzealous
Yet I cherish…the air you breathe
He dove in. Then delved deeper. Dismantled and denuded her esteem like storm ravaged trees, divesting her deepest distress…
Exposing her deep-seated and disfigured destruction.
He rehearsed. Preyed. Deserted and doubled back leaving her darker than death…
Facing flaunting demons that declared her disposition.
She dreaded the despair of declining his dependable return.
We all have skeletons, but yours are still alive.